Honesty in Our Friendships

How many times have we never said anything out of politeness. Sometimes in others we can see something so glaringly out of whack, yet we don't say anything. Most people do not realize that they even have something "wrong" or are doing anything "offensive" to the majority of people. I'd rather have a friend say to me, Hey Siobhan, you tend to do/say/believe in "x" which tends to make me and other people feel uncomfortable. At that point at least I am aware of the "offense" and can CHOOSE to change it or not. I don't know why people don't try to attempt to help others. For example, twice I've had two friends that really had very very bad body odor, but no one would mention to the person that they might need to try to do a little extra work regarding hygiene. People just spoke badly about that person behind their back and what good does that really do...it doesn't solve anything. So of course I pulled them aside quietly and had a little chat with them. What they decide to do after that is their own choice, but sometimes people don't see that there is an issue until someone points it out. So it gets me to my point...I know of a person that needs this little chat. Granted I haven't heard spoken bad words, but I do see the body language of some of the other people. This person really doesn't know that they need some minor tweaking and although I don't know this person well, probably one day I might have to have a little sit down chat with this person. I mean the only other option I can think of is to not be around them as much and I can see they would feel badly because they wouldn't have known what went wrong.

Shooting For the Stars

Yes, shoot for the stars. Why not? Granted part of me is sitting here, saying, come now, be realistic...or don't ask for that because you might get a big head, but I answered myself back and said nope...you're wrong. Ask for the biggest grandest thing you can think of AND also ask for the ability to handle it in a responsible and level headed manner. The other day I said to the whatever is out there listening to me, hey, you guys out there, sure I may not know all the "rules" to this healing stuff, but hey, ya kinda wanna step in here and help me out a bit? How about removing some of those veils that are over my eyes. Yeah, I know I shut the door to it when I was a kid, but 2 months ago I decided to crack open the door to see if it was safe again and I feel it is. I do lack,oh what do you call it, self esteem or the ability to think that I can do something at times. I am really working on the I CAN, sure I slip, but I'm working on it being a large part of my reality. So yeah, tonight on my ride home from dropping off my step kids I said to the universe, God, spirit guides and yes I said them all, I was saying HEY, you know who you are and you know who is supposed to listen to this, so come and listen to me for a bit...here is what I want. I'm just going to shoot for the stars, why not. I can always undo it if I find this is a path I shouldn't be taking. One of my greatest goals in life was to help people. For many years I really really didn't understand how. I've tried looking at so many different avenues to help, but I just threw out a whopper. I said tonight that I want to help the world. I want to help heal the world. Why not...why make it local...why not ask for the largest thing I could think of. lol granted yeah omg that might be a wee bit scary taking on the world, but I also asked for the ability to handle it responsibly and level headed. For these great masters that have existed in our world that we know of...they ARE human...we glorify them and think that we will NEVER be able to attain to such a high level...HA! For one thing that I DO remember in Catholic high school (yuck) was that many of these PEOPLE were over 30 when they really started to make a difference. Granted I can't remember if it was 35 or 40, but still...most weren't born being enlightened. So yeah, I am a woman, I have many scandals in my past that could probably be dragged out to drag me through the mud...lol...sure, but why not be that beacon of light that can shine to the horizon. And what if there were a bunch of them all at once...wow...that would be a glorious beautiful sight to see. Last summer/fall I kept wanting to get into politics to make the world right. Granted my past activism was sometimes in anger...and I should probably have approached it in a different way. So I've taken a step back to look from the outside and tried to find myself through a career counselor. I was lacking spirituality too. I'd have my "moments" where I could get into such a strong state spiritually that boy I don't think drugs can do this to me (never did hard drugs to find out), but it would go away the next day. When I realized I was having more valleys than mountain tops, I realized I needed to work on my spiritual side. I've known about the "tools" of dowsing, a bit of wicca, energy healing, but never enough to practice it well. I've watched a few documentaries on quantum physics and can follow many conversations, but really really I'm an infant walking into all of this. I'm just learning how to walk for goodness sakes. Today I learned that meditation can be while your moving and awake...something so basic that I was not aware of. So most of my practice in spirituality is just going by my gut on what I feel is right or taking little tidbits of what I heard and making it into what works for me. hahaha it's like being a pioneer...the first one to discover it...for didn't all the people of old have to be pioneers in their own way? They had to invent what worked for them and they taught it to others. So sure, yeah, I do want to learn from others what they know and some pointers on how to get to certain goals, but I'm really starting to feel "*uck you" to the world and all of its certificates and papers saying I know how to do something! I prefer classes by donation if there were a "charge". I do prefer the barter system. For gosh darn it I just can't afford the $200+ to take a class on a certain topic...sure $20 maybe once a week or bi-weekly sure, but man oh man...just to learn something now a days. Granted if I had lots more to spend I'd spend it, but honestly, I'd rather slip my teacher a blank envelope in their mail box with what I feel comfortable with, be it a gift card or money or whatever...I'd find a way to return the good deed in one form or another. Oh yeah, which brings to mind churches...I saw one church where the donation box was at the door...you got an envelope and put in what you could and dropped it in the box. More private and comfortable. Granted start up or small churches might need to be a little more aggressive in asking, sure, but in time I think that is a gentler approach and the minister just reminding people of where it is during service. Phew did I get off topic...lots to say tonight on my first blog :) So yeah, I asked for the biggest thing out there. Why not attempt to do the greatest good while your here this round. Why not just go for it...live life to your greatest potential and your souls highest good. 

Introduction and Intentions

Well, I got the idea from one of my friends who has a blog to write my own thoughts down on paper...so to speak. I know that writing helps me enormously and figured that maybe I'll give it a try. So yeah, this is my journey. There will probably be a lot of change as I continue to write. Probably will end up contradicting myself, but that is ok...it is all a learning experience. I intend to write out some poetry, get feedback from others to get a stimulating discussion...and if not, well, then it is for me to listen to the voice within. :)